I’ve never had an eating disorder, aside from some random fumbling and a few failed experiments in high school, which is par for the course at that age. I’ll also never look at a bottle of Boone’s the same way again. Shudder.
This week is National Eating Disorder Week, and the theme is I Had No Idea, which I find to be incredibly ironic, in a sad sort of way. Here’s the thing, as a part of the Healthy Living Blog community, I find myself surrounded by bloggers who still have no idea. They practice food restriction, exercise compulsion, and/or drastic caloric reductions all under the guise of healthy living. The not so funny part is they believe they’re promulgating health and wellness, as opposed to exhibiting signs of having an eating or an exercise disorder. Yup, sad stuff to be sure.
I’m not trying to be offensive here, call people out, or make anyone feel less. Being an ass doesn’t interest me, and I’m certainly in no position to judge. We’ve all got issues, mine just come in different flavors, which are grouped by color and in rainbow order. Obviously.
The bloggers caught up in this behavior are not bad people with nefarious intentions, pushing disordered agendas, all while cackling away as little girls get skinnier and skinner. That’s not how it works. Instead, these bloggers are you. They’re me. They’re works in progress and sometimes they’re on a downward spiral and the simple fact of the matter is they have no idea.
It can be a razor sharp line between disordered behavior and healthy habits. The healthy side of that line is pretty damn sexy though. Let’s talk about it.
The healthy side includes gorgeous bowls of greens, topped with flavorful and fat filled cheese.
It includes dressing for those very same salads.
It includes letting go of control and being okay with that.
It includes not caring about the caloric make up of everything or even better, anything.
It includes happily consuming food with no labels.
It includes eating without needing to weigh each and every morsel you ingest.
It includes having your cake and eating it too.
It includes a life without laxatives, diuretics or weight loss pills.
It includes eating without wanting to purge.
It includes trusting yourself around trigger foods.
It includes all the yolks because it’s where the nutrients live. Plus, they’re delicious.
It includes eating without obsessing over macros.
It includes eating without remorse or guilt.
It includes eating without needing to exercise it off.
It includes bread. Mostly whole grain, but sometimes the fluffy white and possibly sugar filled Orange Chocolate Chip variety.
It includes traveling without a suitcase full of your own food, just in case.
It includes walking away from the scale.
It includes not letting food control your life.
It includes booze, in the middle of the day.
It includes dinner out, without worrying about what’s on the menu and if it meets your dietary needs.
It includes eating publicly and with friends.
It includes eating until you feel truly satiated.
It includes going back for seconds simply because it tastes good.
It includes pizzas topped with veggies and cheese.
It includes working out when you feel like it, not because you have to.
It includes not worrying about when you’re going to squeeze in the next workout.
It includes Pajama Days.
It includes complete days off from exercise, yoga included.
It includes recognizing you are enough right now. You are strong enough. You are smart enough. You are good enough. You are Enough.
If you or someone you know is suffering from an eating or exercise disorder, help is available here. It’s never too late to ask or get started.
Have you ever dealt with an eating or exercise disorder? If so, how did you or how are you working to overcome it?